Its August already.. how the days have gone.. almost my birthday too. Oh no, I'm turning 20 already.. and through all these 20 years.. I have learned a lot of things.. it's like I'm ready to die or something.. One of my best friend, Chantal, told me that her bestfriend's brother died.. and the boy was only 20 for that matter.. It's really sad.. 'coz if ever I die tomorrow, I was thinking.. Have I done something good enough to be remembered with? Will I always be remembered? Will someone miss me in a few months after i die.. and I haven't got anything to leave behind.. I have found Love and I lost it.. I have died and lived again.. I laughed and I cried.. fallen and broke to pieces.. Is there something that's left that I haved missed? Is there someone yet that I have to meet? Is there somewhere that I need to be?
I haven't been sleeping lately.. I'm always thinkin.. What if I sleep tonight and couldn't wake up? Have I told you words that I need to say...?
Are the last things I told you, worth remembering..?
But I suggest to just forget.. I'm not worth a time to remember. It would really hurt me a lot to see you cry when I go.. So be happy for me... 'coz somehow I will be home by then.. the place that I have always looked for all my life..
cheers to sweet beginnings and bitter endings..
~HeaVeN~
Baby you're all that I want, When you're lying here in my arms I'm finding it hard to believe We're in heaven
We're in heaven
Oh, thinkin' about our younger years There was only you and me, We were young and wild and free Now nothing can take you away from me, We've been down that road before That's over now.. You keep me comin' back for more
Baby you're all that I want, When you're lying here in my arms I'm finding it hard to believe We're in heaven And lovin' is all that I need, And I'm found it there in your heart It isn't too hard to see, We're in heaven
We're in heaven
Now nothing can change what you mean to me There's a lot that I could say But just hold me now Cause our love will light the way
Now our dreams are comin' true Through the good times and the bad I'll be standing there by you
We're in heaven
~MiSSiNg~
Please, please forgive me, But I won’t be home again. Maybe someday you’ll have woke up, And, barely conscious, you’ll say to no one: "isn’t something missing? "
You won’t cry for my absence, I know - You forgot me long ago. Am I that unimportant...? Am I so insignificant...? Isn’t something missing? Isn’t someone missing me?
Even though I’d be sacrificed, You won’t try for me, not now. Though I’d die to know you love me, I’m all alone. Isn’t someone missing me?
Please, please forgive me, But I won’t be home again. I know what you do to yourself, Shudder deep and cry out: "isn’t something missing? Isn’t someone missing me? "
And if I bleed, I’ll bleed, Knowing you don’t care. And if I sleep just to dream of you And wake without you there, Isn’t something missing? Isn’t something...
~ToRniQueT~
I tried to kill the pain, But only brought more.(So much more) I'm dying, And I'm pouring, crimson regret, and betrayal.
I'm dying, Praying, Bleeding, Screaming. Am I too lost to be saved ? Am I too lost ? My God! My Tourniquet, Return to me salvation. My God! My Tourniquet, Return to me salvation.
Do you remember me? Lost for so long. Will you be on the other side? Will you forgive me?
(Return to me salvation) (I want to DIE!)
My wounds cry for the grave. My soul cries, for deliverance. Will I be denied?
