EveRyTiMe I cLoSe My EyeS, aLL I cAn eVer sEe iS YoU... aNd WheN I sLeeP, aLL I cAn DreAm aBouT iS YoU.. AnD ThrOugH eVerY WakiNg MomEnT, ThoUghTs oF YoU FiLLs mY hEaD..
NeVeR HaD ThiS FeeLinG BefOrE.. aS iF aLL tHe DreAms I BuiLt aRouNd You CoLLapSeD JusT LikE ThaT.. EnDinG aLL tHe PraYerS aNd HoPeS tHaT I HaVe BeEn SavinG fOr uS.. mY PoiNt oF LivinG SuDdenLy CamE tO aN EnD..
TeaRs FloWinG iN mY EyeS, I fiNd iT veRy HarD tO tRuSt aNyOne.. eVeN mYseLf.. eVeN GoD..
aLL I eVeR FeLt wAs tHiS UnBeaRabLe PaiN, HatE fOr eVerYoNe.. FeaR fOr eVerYtHinG.. aNd SoLiTuDe..
NoOne MigHt eVeR UnDerStaNd HoW I ReaLLy FeLt.. I HatE YoU... aNd I LoVe YoU... aNd I DoN't wAnT tO LeT Go... I Can'T.. eVeN iF I LosT iT aLL.. StiLL I WisH... YoU'd bE BacK aNd SaVe mE.. ThE wAy YoU diD BeForE..
i'LL HoLd On FoR LonGeR.. WiTh tHis PiEcE oF HopE...
you'll rescue me right? in the exact same way they never did.. I'll be happy right? when your healing powers kick in
you'll complete me right? then my life can finally begin I'll be worthy right? only when you realize the gem I am?
but this won't work now the way it once did and I won't keep it up even though I would love to once I know who I'm not then I'll know who I am but I know I won't keep on playing the victim
these precious illusions in my head did not let me down when I was defenseless and parting with them is like parting with invisible best friends
this ring will me yet as will you knight in shining armor this pill will help me yet as will these boys gone through like water
but this won't work as well as the way it once did cuz I want to decide between survival and bliss and though I know who I'm not I still don't know who I am but I know I won't keep on playing the victim
these precious illusions in my head did not let me down when I was a kid and parting with them is like parting with a childhood best friend
I've spent so long firmly looking outside me I've spent so much time living in survival mode
How can I just let you walk away Just let you leave without a trace When I stand here Taking every breath with you You're the only one who really knew me at all
How can you just walk away from me, When all I can do is watch you leave? 'cause we shared the laughter and the pain, And even shared the tears You're the only one who really new me at all
So take a look at me now, There's just an empty space There's nothing left here to remind me, just the memory of your face Take a look at me now, there's just an empty space you coming back to me is against the odds and that's what i've gotta face
I wish I could just make you turn around, Turn around and see me cry There's so much I need to say to you, So many reasons why You're the only one who really knew me at all
So take a look at me now, There's just an empty space There's nothing left here to remind me, Just the memory of your face Take a look at me now, There's just an empty space And to wait for you is all I can do, And that's what I've got to face
Take a look at me now, I'll just be standing here And you coming back to me Is against the odds And that's a chance I've got to face
